It looked like he sighed, though it was difficult to tell with the way the light was behind him. “I have been to the commissary for a number of meals, and have slept in my base quarters.” Except for the first night, when she fell asleep at her desk, the edge of her hand pressed on the space bar of her keyboard so when she woke she had four-hundred twelve pages of blankness. “You haven’t left your lab in three days.” And then her mind would catch up and her body would equilibrate and she would remember that he was home-and didn’t want to be.Ĭarter shot to her feet so fast her chair skittered halfway across the room-damn, now she was going to have to get that-and spun to face Colonel O’Neill, who stood silhouetted in the doorway of her lab.
It had taken her two days to remember the Colonel was back on Earth, and she still woke to the thought that she should be in the lab, working on the way to bring him home. She was just doing it while making sure not to cross paths with the Colonel-or Daniel or Teal’c, if she were to be honest with herself. Though, she reasoned, she wasn’t really hiding-she genuinely had work to do, and she was doing it. It felt uncomfortably like déjà vu, and that was not a thought she wanted to be having at the moment.Ĭarter was a bit ashamed to admit that she hid in her lab for as long as possible. Teal’c shot her a meaningful-if somewhat indecipherable-look before following after him, and she was left watching them walk away. That’s an order.” And then he swept past her down the hall before she could get a response out. “I don’t want to stand here and argue with you, Major you look worse than I do. “I have work to finish, sir.” Projects she had abandoned to work on Sokar’s weapon. “Get some rest, Carter.” Colonel O’Neill ran a surprisingly tan-shouldn’t he have been as tan as he was going to get before his time on P5C-768, going on so many missions in the sun?-hand through his hair, sending it into even further disarray. “I’m fine, sir.” No need for her weakness to be another failure in the Colonel’s eyes right now. I was about to tell Major Carter that perhaps she should rest.” Teal’c cut through the silence with his deep voice, saying, “I am glad you are well, O’Neill. Quickly, she looked away she could take the blankness from P5C-768, but she didn’t think she could take disappointment, or anger. He seemed to realize she was standing there as the words left his mouth, and he just stared for a second, something working behind his eyes. He looked as though he wanted to say more, as much as Teal’c ever looked like he wanted to say anything, but was interrupted by the door opening and Colonel O’Neill’s cheerful announcement of, “All clear, T. “When was the last time you slept, Major Carter?”Ĭarter couldn’t readily think of an answer, though if he had asked she could have told him off the top of her head the size of the particles they had shot through the gate to eight significant figures-nine if she thought about it-so she settled for, “Earlier.” Teal’c stared at her with what looked like mild curiosity, though for Teal’c that was basically like him having a neon question mark floating over his head. “I’m not upset with him.” Upset with herself, but not with him. They were all waiting outside the infirmary it wasn’t quite standard regulations, but after a hundred days, they all wanted to make sure the Colonel was okay. They had gone through the standard tests, but he had to go through extra medical debriefs because it had been so long. “Why are you upset with Colonel O’Neill, Major Carter?”Ĭarter looked over at Teal’c, who was standing across from her as they waited for Colonel O’Neil to finish his medical exam. Regardless, it was pretty clear that he had gotten attached to Edora-to Laira-and now he didn’t want to come back. Maybe closer to ninety-eight percent sure a hundred percent was too sure, and as a scientist, she didn’t like absolutes. He wanted to stay on P5C-768, and she was a hundred percent sure the only reason he was coming back with them was that he was a good soldier, no matter how much he liked to pretend otherwise. Go home-coming home implied somehow coming with her, which obviously wasn’t the case-but the point was the same. It had taken her too long to engineer Sokar’s damn device, and now Colonel O’Neil didn’t want to come home. This, though, was almost definitely her fault. But her main character flaw, she knew, was that she tended to think things were her fault-though, to be fair, they usually were. A symptom of spending too much time with Colonel O’Neill, probably. Carter knew that she had a number of character flaws, chief being, possibly, that she had taken to thinking of herself as Carter.
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